Friday, April 6, 2012


Morals ethics are all relative. Like a hologram, how you perceive depends on where you look from. From my angle it looks black without a doubt, but from somewhere else, it looks gray, maybe even white. Is there a right angle of sight? Is there a person who can possibly know which angle to look from to spot the truth? Is there a thing as truth? Or is it relative too? See if morals are all relative, what are they relative to? 

How we perceive is a function of our mind. As time passes, our brain gets "hard-wired" so to speak, and we begin reacting to things in increasingly constant patterns. The processing of familiar inputs is stored and iterates to a more or less fixed algorithm. What is, I believe, of essence is, the initial inputs given which passes through our mind's "transfer function" and gives a certain output, well that transfer function is what is subject to change in the early stages of the mind. for it takes in feedback of the output it generated from a particular input. so of essence is how and what are the combinations of input as well as feedbacks which lead to what is called a sound person.

(Feedback is probably the most important word, biologically. "feedback loops are the reason for multistationarity" think about it. if there were no feedback, every person would behave in only a way it was born with. that means, that other people would not have any effect on you ever. you are what you are right now because of the people that have come in your life. if THAT variable is taken out what makes you unique?! no multiple stationary points. before you know it the entire race would have been extinct.)

that soundness is also variable. As in, a person could be sound in one aspect, but apparently insane in other. That depends on what "transfer function" in the given context, has your brain reached, which as hypothized before, depends on inputs it faced during its formative period. Experiences. However, even a well drilled mind can be changed if an input of sufficient intensity were incident. As chemistry teaches us, it is not just intensity, but the wavelength of incident light is also important. An electron will absorb a photon only if it is of a particular wavelength. That change occurrence is brought about only by few. Accidental, yes, but if otherwise, be assured that such a person who can bring it about is an accomplished person.

If there is indeed a varying level of soundness, there must be a probability distribution. and since there are almost completely unsound persons, there must exist an almost completely sound person, eh? So is that person, what we are all relative to? what you want to see yourself relative to is also your own choice, though. You could be around average and compare yourself with the "bad" extreme :P So what I am saying is morals ethics etc are not just relative to each other, but to some fixed state too. Imagine if there was only one person on the earth. He could either be barbaric or be well behaved. It wouldn't matter though since no one would be there to give a fuck. :P that behaviour is not perceived by himself since there is no one else to compare and hence no feedback ! but still if you were an invisible observer, you could judge. So indeed there must be some point to which everything is relative, I conclude thus.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

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Sindhudurg killings verdict came out yesterday. High Court confirms death sentence on 4 convicts.
The case is as follows,
8 yrs ago. in Dec '03, four young men had lured 9 victims from Mumbai, Pune and Satara under the guise of multiplying their money by magic and then brutally murdered them at a hillock in Sindhudurg.
The divisional bench of Justice said- and "they acted as if they were professional murderers" while executing a meticulously planned conspiracy. The court noted that the alternative life sentence could not be considered in the case as it would shock the conscience of the society. "In our opinion all the convicted accused would be a menace to society and they cannot be reformed" the judges said.
Well done, bench of Justice. But reading this, do you not immediately draw parallels with the Kasab case? Justice decided to hear out Kasab's plea. What, and Kasab can be reformed? After serving some 25 yrs of his sentence, if he's let out on basis of good conduct, will the society throw a "welcome reformed Kasab" party for him? Was his act not meticulously planned and executed in cold blood? Or was he just playing with some Kalashnikov's that accidentally went off?

I'm not in favour of death penalty. I mean, we're not China (which IMO is one messed up country by the way). I'm always reminded of Gandalf's words- Many that live deserve death. And some that die deserve life. Can you give it to them? Then do not be too eager to deal out death in judgement. For even the very wise cannot see all ends.
Still, the lack of reason, the apparent injustice brings me to a boil. I cannot help it.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

associated memories

I always found it intriguing how some actions are intricately related to memories.. some songs for example. "mitwa" reminds of my first year in college and it's the most bizzare feeling. it's as if i'm lifted and transported to 5303.. that song was a super hit then.. I remember how we'd bought those cheap fm radios at dadar station and me and kaiya would lie listening to them.. every once in a while saying "kaiya are red fm lav, mitwa laglay!" :D (heard mitwa after a long long time and it brought all of these things gushing back... wanted to put this on as a status msg but it was too much to condense into a status )
 i mean i can literally feel the rain falling as we stood haggling with the fm radio vendor at dadar.. me adwait and kaiya.. dunno how these memories remain so fresh.. wonder if there is a decay rate to memories and some memories fade away faster than others.. I don't remember my first day in college so vividly as this and they are both from barely a few weeks apart.. you tend to remember certain "type" of memories better. and this "type" or combination of types is unique for every person. some memories remain there for they were adrenaline rushing moments, some do coz they touched your heart and appealed to softer emotions..  i think the "life" of a memory must have something to do with the hormone(s) secreted at the moment.. but whatever it is sure does break the time space continuum.. 
what is with actions and thoughts? perhaps we will never know.. I'm sure you must have experienced this- you're doing something and suddenly you remember you have to meet so and so and tell them something.. and on the way someone else stops you and you start talking and after that, for the life of you, you don't remember what you came out to do!! isn't it? it irks you.. like it's just around the corner of yr "memory path" but you can not get there! so then you go back to doing what you were doing in the first place, retracing yr steps that is, and then it comes back to you. sorta like a non-return valve, you have to get back to the upstream end to pass thru the valve again.
Sooo innocuous.. it has you wondering why you forgot such a simple thing.. what are these memories? chemical reactions?? some reversible, some irreversible, or rather "action/path specific" ? I would love to find out some of these answers some day but for now, goodnight!

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

The Cigar Case

Cacophonic yowling of sirens in the dead of the night awoke the owner of a plush condo in Beverly Hills, CA .. Putting on his glasses Jean Pierre rushed to the window towards the source of the bright yellow light. Squinting to brush off his stupor, he realised the light was coming from a fire. The Storage area three blocks away was on fire. A red fire brigade swerved the corner and screeched to a halt. He knew the owner of the storage area of cuban cigars.. he was a good friend..

Pierre rushed down in his dressing gown to the place of the fire. the fire was almost dead by now. the fire fighters were conversing with the night watchman of the adjacent block.
"Do you know who the owner of this.. um.. storage is?",, asked the fireman.
"Excuse me mister, I am Jean Pierre and the owner of this place is a friend of mine, Laurent Lefevre"
"Can you call him up and inform him to come down to the Beverly Hills fire station asap, Mr. Pierre?"
"Oui", said Pierre absently. He was looking aghast at the remains. a few embers here and there. The whole place had burned down. Not a single box of cigars left there.
"What?", said the fireman.
"I mean, yes, of course"


"comment est-ce arrivé?"
A broken down Laurent sat at the breakfast table of Pierre's condo..
"Easily about a million dollars worth of the best quality Cuban cigars! All ash now.. All of it!"
"Come on now, surely you must have insured for them?", said Pierre consoling him.
"Yes! Completely paid up! I'll be damned if you don't pay up.. and quick!", said Monsieur Lefevre to Mr. Hughes of Hughes and Kane Insurance Ltd.
“Now, now, monsieur. I understand you have suffered a huge loss. Your losses will be remunerated as soon as a report is completed. Only a minor step. Once your file is approved by me and Kane you will receive your insurance amounting to four mil!” said Hughes.
“Well make it quick alright!”

She stubbed out her cigarette and picked up the ringing telephone by her bed.
“Listen Sue, a minor case for you,” She recognized her boss’ voice at the other end “a storage area caught fire last night and burned down a million dollars worth of Cuban cigs. You need to look into it as soon as possible”
“Yes, sir”, Susan Moore was a rising star in the firm and aspired to have her own company one day, Hughes, Kane and co was just a stepping stone.. “I will have your file ready as soon as possible”

Another boring file to be closed, she thought. Little did she know that this was a case she would never forget in her entire life.
She got dressed swung by her office, picked up the file and raced to the site. She stepped out of the car and began observing everything. Always keep looking. Through your observation you must be able to spot anomalies, keeping always in mind the relevant facts. It is often things you don’t see that ring bells, she remembered her teacher saying. Robert Connolly was a retired law professor at Princeton, from where she had graduated first class.

Two people were at the site talking. One appeared to be unsettled and the other probably consoling.
“Hello Mr. Lefevre, I am Susan Moore from the Hughes Kane Insurance” she said holding a hand up to the former. He shook it. The look on his face was all too familiar. If faces could speak, Laurent’s would’ve said, I don’t give a damn who you are! Just give me my four million.

“I am just going to make a few enquiries, survey the site and if everything is in order, you will get your money by the end of next week”, IF everything is in order, Sue thought. She had not been on the field for a lot of time, but her reputation was already building. This Susan has a sure instinct,  Hughes had said.
She had an instinct something was wrong. She would soon find out what. She always did. On three occasions previously Susan had saved the firm a total of around a hundred grand. This was her first big case and she already knew why her boss had asked specifically for her to be put on it. He must have smelled a rat. Arsons, though not very common in this area, raised their ugly heads from time to time.
“Mr. Levefre, approximately how many boxes of cigars were in there?”
“Could have been thirty, fourty. I’m not sure”
“Any records with you?”
“All burned down didn’t they?” he said heatedly.
Neat, she thought. Burn down the evidence.
“Look all I know is my insurance has been paid up. And I am entitled to it in such a case.” Said Laurent.
“You are, sir. But not unless there is proof of loss of material as written in the agreement papers. I will just take a look around, alright”

The burned down storage looked like a huge ashtray. It was like Satan had a sudden whim to smoke Cubans. Sue looked around, eyes peeled for signs of staging. The file said old wiring was the most probable cause of fire. Pretty old, the wiring sure is, she thought. Moving around to the back of the room she located the source of fire. Wires from the wall had stuck out, the insulation burned down by the fire leaving them exposed live. Copper wires hung from the walls, red.

Red. Wait a minute. There is something amiss. She moved around to spot more evidence. Spotting something red in a nearby puddle, she swept off the wet ash to find a Copper plaque bearing the name of Mr. Laurent’s company. The words stenciled on the plaque did not bother Sue as much as its appearance. It was shining red.
Laurent Cigar Dealers, est. 1990.
Twelve years. Still shining bright red. Something she remembered her geeky lab mate had said in Senior High about copper turning green under certain conditions. For the life of her, she couldn’t remember what. Should give Mabel a call, she thought, Nitrogen, was it?

Mabel happened to have her lunch break at twelve and she was delighted to meet her old friend Susan from the Chemistry lab. After exchanging pleasantries and reminiscing the good old days, Sue came straight to the point.
“Well, not nitrogen as it was, but Copper does react with nitric acid to form a green layer. Actually it gives nitrous and nitric oxides depending on the concentration of the acid,” Mabel said, she was a Chemistry major, “but it does stick to form a layer on copper.”
“I dunno about nitric acid, but how about a helluva lot of smoke?”
“What smoke?”
“Smoke, as in the grey dusty matter, duh…”
“what I meant was, smoke from what?”
“Oh cigars”
“that would indeed turn copper grey, combustion of nicotine and some organics in cigarettes are known to react on copper surface leaving a green coating on the metal…”

She had stopped listening to Mabel who had gone on rambling about the reaction like she did in the Lab. So that was it! That was her answer. She was set to save her company millions of dollars. Oh no, it wasn’t about the commission, it was about the rep. yes, she was in for a wave of awe when, dramatically, she’d reveal the flaw in front of the court! Clever plan Mr Lefevre. Perfect, almost.





“So you say copper turns green when nicotine burns in presence of copper?”
Mabel was Susan’s expert witness.
“A layer is formed, yes, comprising of…”
“Never mind that. So if some forty crates of Cigars were to catch fire in a room about this size, would it be safe to assume that the plaque should also have turned green?”
“Definitely. This problem was first identified with copper cigarette holders… ”
“That’s all” said Susan with a meaningful look at the jury and returned to her seat looking smug.

Lefevre’s lawyer, Ronald Weiss, got up to cross examine.
“So this plaque recovered from the Storage.  What grade would you say it is? Just hazard a guess, I’m not asking you to be too specific”
“It looks like a high quality piece to me, judging from the shade of red” said Mabel.
“So you say that the plaque should have been green instead of the shining red that it is right now?”
“Yes, it should have. The given the number of boxes and the volume of the room, the concentration was quite high”
Weiss, himself had done quite some research. He loved to read day to day Chemistry, before, you know, he became a lawyer.
“You were referring to these copper cigarette holders. I happened to look around a bit myself and chanced upon this” he said, taking out a copper holder neatly cut in half, along its length. “would this be what you were referring to?”
“yes” said Mabel, a little anxious.
“Now what would you say about this layer? Is it, umm.. flaky as rust upon Iron, or impermeable, as oxide of titanium on titanium?”
Mabel glanced towards Susan, who was about to raise an objection as to relevance of the cross-examination.
“I guess it is a permeable layer” she said in a low voice.
“Your guess is correct, miss! I happened to do a bit of research on it, and turns out that this layer is as you say a permeable one. To the lay man – flaky. In fact, traces of components of the residue were found in people’s lungs. Now if this copper plaque, covered by such a layer, were to be exposed to a jet of water issuing at speeds of 500 liters a minute, would you safely expect it to get washed, miss Mabel?”
“Yes”
“That, indeed, explains the present color of the copper plaque, doesn’t it?”
Weiss said with a smirk.
“Too many insurance agencies all too frequently try to avoid paying up by proving arson these days”

Thursday, April 22, 2010

TOW the last one

A wonderful 4 year ride is  sadly coming to an end.. I wish I could just replicate my hostel elsewhere wherever I go... I will just miss this place so much..
Just yesterday I was roaming around swearing out loud, and I realised this, that this may be the last time for quite a few things I've become so accustomed to.. :(
- playing CS, poker ( oh those night outs! ), FIFA
- roaming around in the corridor wearing nothing but shorts..
- cutting a birthday cake
- the last meal in mess!!
- beating up gotya. or getting beaten up by people :D
- Munna ji ka "khaana hai ke khaa liya?"
- songs blaring loud from my speakers.. kaiya, kelkar sitting giving their own "farmaish"
- the late night chat sessions.. mostly in eric's room :)
- going out to eat on sundays.. and the amount per person increasing as the years advance.
- McD's with the gang! pole with his usual order! ( two McChicken!)
- teasing Sarode.. Prism and his deadly comments! omg!
 I remember this one time, when none of us had computers, we were watching a movie over at Bhushan's room.. and our warden came for a 'once in two or three blue moons' stroll on our floor and found around 12 of us sitting on a single bed.. and he was like, " yaa this is why the beds break!! " :D
and and.. me eric kaiya anshuman and gattu were all gappa-ing.. eric drank water from our bottle and for a reason still beyond me, spat, nay sprayed, the whole thing on ansh and gattu! the reason he gave was. well it was a sprite bottle and a recent one.. he said the water tasted like sprite.. we were like, duh! is that any reason to spit it out? i mean normal people do drink it.. :D anshuman's immediate reaction, expressions and all, not quite appropriate to be said here, was something I will never forget.. oh..
and once in our first year, me and kaiya were in fronta Aurora.. and kaiya went to kick a bottle, his other foot slipped and he fell! and instead of lifting him up, i started laughing like crazy!!
and the Big Chief joke during first year's prodigy! me, bull (modak) , kathe, kaiya.. (5 ppl on 2 beds btw :P) laughed for one hour straight! :D that joke word since that day has been a nickname for one of my classmates..

oh so so many uncountable times of fun.. This blogger wouldn't be able to provide enough space to write!

I'm gonna miss this place like hell...

good day/ night